The Power of Self-Awareness in Recovery: A Personal Journey

David Aumiller CPS, NCPRSS • August 4, 2023

Hello, my name is Dave Aumiller, and I am in long-term recovery from Substance Use Disorder (SUD). My journey to recovery has been a rollercoaster ride, filled with highs and lows, but throughout it all, self-awareness has been my guiding light.


Childhood and the Beginnings of Addiction


My story began like many others, growing up in a suburb of St. Louis with loving parents and a seemingly normal childhood. However, as I grew older, I found myself slowly becoming obsessed with drugs and alcohol. Despite the negative repercussions, I continued down this path, trading away all the advantages in the world for an obsession that was slowly consuming me.


A Life-Changing Diagnosis and a Downward Spiral


The turning point came when I was diagnosed with cancer and lost my mother unexpectedly. This led to my first prescription for pain medication and the beginning of a downward spiral. I started using heroin to numb the pain of losing my father to ALS and the guilt and shame that came with it.


Choosing Recovery: Commitment and Accountability


After years of chaos, drug charges, and prison sentences, I found myself at a crossroads. I was standing outside the county jail, faced with the choice of returning to my old life or choosing a new path. In that moment, I chose recovery. I committed to sobriety, participated in in-patient treatment, transitional housing, and outside community support groups. I worked hard, held myself accountable, and was honest with myself and others. Slowly but surely, I built an environment I could be proud of.


Relapse and Redemption: The Reality of Recovery


However, recovery is not a straight line. I relapsed and found myself back in prison. But even in the darkest moments, I held onto the belief that I could change. I decided to do my time sober and upon release, I returned to the path of recovery.


Building a New Life: You Are Accountable


Today, I am a Nationally certified peer support specialist and manage an inspired team of other peer support specialists at You Are Accountable and the Director of the National Peer Recovery Alliance where we sustain and develop a culture of people in recovery constantly advancing the credential we hold. And I am proudly and diligently in long-term recovery from SUD.


Lessons from the Journey: Self-Awareness and Hope


My journey to recovery has taught me the power of self-awareness. It's about recognizing your activators, understanding your emotions, and making conscious decisions to change. It's about acknowledging your past mistakes and using them as stepping stones to a better future. To those still struggling with addiction, know that there is hope. Recovery is possible. It may not be easy, but it is worth it. And remember, you are not alone. There are organizations and individuals who are ready to help, to guide, and to support you on your journey to recovery.


Faith and Community in Recovery


I would be remiss without mentioning my faith as my compass, allowing me to find true north in moments of doubt. As well as my recovery community, better described as other individuals in recovery demonstrating faith through action.


Conclusion: The Lifelong Journey of Recovery


In conclusion, always remember, recovery is a journey, not a destination. Stay strong, stay hopeful, and most importantly, stay self-aware.


By Jason Ertrachter February 4, 2025
With over a decade of alcohol and drug abuse, it became clear I could not drink responsibly or consume in moderation. Upon further review, I came to understand I was never able to drink responsibly and was predisposed to consume in excess. Moderation is a construct I still don’t understand. Alcohol, drugs, sugar, ego, all things I love to indulge in. At 25 years old, weeks before the pandemic, I found myself being escorted by security from my beloved office in a sought-after industry in a glamorous part of Los Angeles. Pursuing a career in talent management, the late nights, weekly drinking, daily drug use culminated in the unavoidable fear, anxiety and sense of calamity that led me to recovery. I asked myself, “What was the common denominator between lost jobs, friends lost, arrests, hurt feelings and selfishness?” People, places, things were always changing, but the one constant in my story was me with drugs and alcohol. Walking into the West Hollywood Recovery Center on Monday February 5th, 2020 at noon was not my first meeting. It was, however, the first meeting at which I listened and actually took suggestions. Meetings as a teenager, and again in college when my drug use got bad, were simply to get people off my back. As I look back, I understand that I actually needed to get out of my own way, not have those who loved me off of my back. I am grateful to have gotten sober during a time when the world shut down and so many struggled. I had nowhere to go, no outside distractions to challenge my commitment. I fully emerged myself in meetings and all that AA had to offer for young people. There were thousands of virtual meetings at every hour of the day, but more importantly, rooms and outdoor meetings in LA that never missed a beat. There was an underground community of meeting makers that continued to go to in-person meetings, masks on, hugs and fellowship. I found that the work of early recovery far outweighed the isolation. I left the entertainment industry with two years of sobriety. New career opportunities opened up pretty quickly for me. Transitioning into the startup and tech sales world, I was able to move back home to New York and be closer to my family. As my sobriety continued, new career paths continued to present themselves. When I was introduced to Matt and AJ, I was immediately impressed with their mission and welcomed the opportunity to join the team. I am confident that the combination of my personal and professional success, as well as my CARC, CRPA certification, made my decision the perfect one for me. Having hit my stride in my own recovery, I now see that that my purpose is to help others. It is a purpose I do not take lightly. I bring the same energy and focus that has helped me to get where I am today to other individuals and families alike looking for a better way.
By Stephanie Myers, CPRS January 29, 2025
My name is Stephanie Myers, and I am excited to be part of the incredible team at You Are Accountable . As difficult as my journey prior to recovery was, I am grateful for every step along the way. My recovery journey began five years ago through what I believe was divine intervention. At my lowest point—mentally, physically, and spiritually—I was led to a 12-step recovery program. Most of my life was spent seeking relief from my internal and external struggles. During my teenage years, I thought I had found a solution, but my addiction only progressed, leading me to the depths of despair. My addiction compromised my morals, diminished my integrity, and left me with a profound sense of hopelessness. Overwhelmed by guilt and shame, I realized that everything in my life had to change. I became willing to do whatever it took to shift the trajectory of my life. Gradually, I connected with others who understood my pain and had found their way to recovery. I dedicated myself to internal work and began to fill the spiritual void that I had been attempting to fill with substances. Today, my life is filled with purpose, love, and more beauty than I could have ever imagined five years ago. It is my passion to help others realize that there is hope on the other side of addiction. As a Certified Peer Recovery Specialist, I strive to help plant the seed of recovery and help others grow along their path to recovery.
By Brittany Pealer, CRPS January 28, 2025
My name is Brittany, and I’m honored to be part of the team at You Are Accountable . My journey to recovery has been filled with struggles, lessons, and, ultimately, transformation. For years, I lived in the utter hopelessness of addiction, believing there was no way out. A "normal" life felt completely out of reach, and even as a child, I never felt like I had a true purpose. Throughout my active addiction, I found myself trapped in a relentless cycle. I would put one substance down—whether through treatment or court-ordered intervention—but almost immediately, I would pick up another. Each time, I restarted the same painful, destructive cycle, convinced that I could never break free. It wasn’t until I realized that recovery is an inside job that things began to change. Changing people, places, and things (and substances) can only do so much for so long; true recovery requires doing the hard work within. My turning point came when I became pregnant with my first daughter. For the first time in my life, I found a reason to fight for something greater than myself. That moment marked the beginning of my journey to recovery, and through that journey, I discovered the life I never thought was possible. Today, I’m blessed with an amazing job, a beautiful family with two incredible daughters, and an active role in my recovery community. As a Certified Peer Recovery Specialist (CPRS) and Recovery Coach, I am passionate about helping others find hope and healing. I understand the challenges of breaking free from addiction, and I’m living proof that it’s possible to create a life filled with purpose, joy, and connection. Recovery has given me everything I once believed was out of reach, and I’m honored to walk alongside others as they embark on their own journeys to freedom.
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