Katie's Story

Katie McKenna • August 26, 2021

Katie's Story

I was a shy, quiet kid. Behind that shyness was intense anxiety. Afraid to be seen, afraid to be the center of attention, afraid to speak up, afraid to be heard- that was me. This anxiety caused me to have extremely painful stomach aches every day at school. My parents took me to the doctors where I was poked and prodded and finally told that nothing was physically wrong with me but, I had “anxiety”. They gave me a prescription for some green liquid medicine that helped soothe my stomach pain but did absolutely nothing to ease my fears. So, I was left to just handle my anxiety on my own. I felt confused and embarrassed for being such a scared kid. I just wanted to feel normal. 


Enter alcohol. I think I was 12 the first time I drank alcohol. What I remember very well is that I immediately LOVED it, because it took all my anxiety away. I wasn’t shy anymore! It made me love being the center of attention! I could talk nonstop, to anyone, and it was fun! I drank whenever I had the opportunity all through my teens. In addition, drinking made me very open and willing to experiment with other drugs. Alcohol, though, became the one I loved the most. 


My addiction to alcohol then developed at warp speed.  By the time I was 21 I knew I had a serious problem. I dropped out of college at age 22 to go to rehab. When that didn’t work, I struggled for 3 more years trying to stop on my own. I cannot describe what the mental anguish is like knowing you’re trapped in an addiction and not knowing how to free yourself. After crashing my car driving drunk one night, I finally agreed to go to another treatment program. I knew deep down, my time had come. 


I was extremely fortunate to enter the program “Teen Challenge” on November 20th, 1999. We were not allowed to smoke there, so I had to throw my cigarettes away before I walked through the doors. It’s crazy to look back on because that day I stopped drinking, doing drugs AND smoking all on the same day and I have never gone back! It’s been 21 years. Almost 22! 


Reflecting on everything, I think the reason I was finally able to get sober is that I just surrendered. 


I knew if I went back, it would only lead to more mental anguish, pain, and misery. It was terrifying and felt like jumping off a cliff. However, I was willing to take that plunge into the unknown by just clinging to a glimmer of hope that my life would get better. 


My life did get better, so much better, and it gets better all the time. Over the years I have found so much support and encouragement in the form of support groups, counselors, healers, coaches, mentors. To this day, I still cry tears of sheer gratitude when I remember how far I’ve come and all the truly special people who’ve helped me along the way. It’s only natural for me to want to help others who’ve been in that dark place I was once in, because I know they can come out of it too. I’m not saying it’s easy, but it’s 100% possible. You’re not too old, and it’s not too late. We do recover. 

By Jason Ertrachter February 4, 2025
With over a decade of alcohol and drug abuse, it became clear I could not drink responsibly or consume in moderation. Upon further review, I came to understand I was never able to drink responsibly and was predisposed to consume in excess. Moderation is a construct I still don’t understand. Alcohol, drugs, sugar, ego, all things I love to indulge in. At 25 years old, weeks before the pandemic, I found myself being escorted by security from my beloved office in a sought-after industry in a glamorous part of Los Angeles. Pursuing a career in talent management, the late nights, weekly drinking, daily drug use culminated in the unavoidable fear, anxiety and sense of calamity that led me to recovery. I asked myself, “What was the common denominator between lost jobs, friends lost, arrests, hurt feelings and selfishness?” People, places, things were always changing, but the one constant in my story was me with drugs and alcohol. Walking into the West Hollywood Recovery Center on Monday February 5th, 2020 at noon was not my first meeting. It was, however, the first meeting at which I listened and actually took suggestions. Meetings as a teenager, and again in college when my drug use got bad, were simply to get people off my back. As I look back, I understand that I actually needed to get out of my own way, not have those who loved me off of my back. I am grateful to have gotten sober during a time when the world shut down and so many struggled. I had nowhere to go, no outside distractions to challenge my commitment. I fully emerged myself in meetings and all that AA had to offer for young people. There were thousands of virtual meetings at every hour of the day, but more importantly, rooms and outdoor meetings in LA that never missed a beat. There was an underground community of meeting makers that continued to go to in-person meetings, masks on, hugs and fellowship. I found that the work of early recovery far outweighed the isolation. I left the entertainment industry with two years of sobriety. New career opportunities opened up pretty quickly for me. Transitioning into the startup and tech sales world, I was able to move back home to New York and be closer to my family. As my sobriety continued, new career paths continued to present themselves. When I was introduced to Matt and AJ, I was immediately impressed with their mission and welcomed the opportunity to join the team. I am confident that the combination of my personal and professional success, as well as my CARC, CRPA certification, made my decision the perfect one for me. Having hit my stride in my own recovery, I now see that that my purpose is to help others. It is a purpose I do not take lightly. I bring the same energy and focus that has helped me to get where I am today to other individuals and families alike looking for a better way.
By Stephanie Myers, CPRS January 29, 2025
My name is Stephanie Myers, and I am excited to be part of the incredible team at You Are Accountable . As difficult as my journey prior to recovery was, I am grateful for every step along the way. My recovery journey began five years ago through what I believe was divine intervention. At my lowest point—mentally, physically, and spiritually—I was led to a 12-step recovery program. Most of my life was spent seeking relief from my internal and external struggles. During my teenage years, I thought I had found a solution, but my addiction only progressed, leading me to the depths of despair. My addiction compromised my morals, diminished my integrity, and left me with a profound sense of hopelessness. Overwhelmed by guilt and shame, I realized that everything in my life had to change. I became willing to do whatever it took to shift the trajectory of my life. Gradually, I connected with others who understood my pain and had found their way to recovery. I dedicated myself to internal work and began to fill the spiritual void that I had been attempting to fill with substances. Today, my life is filled with purpose, love, and more beauty than I could have ever imagined five years ago. It is my passion to help others realize that there is hope on the other side of addiction. As a Certified Peer Recovery Specialist, I strive to help plant the seed of recovery and help others grow along their path to recovery.
By Brittany Pealer, CRPS January 28, 2025
My name is Brittany, and I’m honored to be part of the team at You Are Accountable . My journey to recovery has been filled with struggles, lessons, and, ultimately, transformation. For years, I lived in the utter hopelessness of addiction, believing there was no way out. A "normal" life felt completely out of reach, and even as a child, I never felt like I had a true purpose. Throughout my active addiction, I found myself trapped in a relentless cycle. I would put one substance down—whether through treatment or court-ordered intervention—but almost immediately, I would pick up another. Each time, I restarted the same painful, destructive cycle, convinced that I could never break free. It wasn’t until I realized that recovery is an inside job that things began to change. Changing people, places, and things (and substances) can only do so much for so long; true recovery requires doing the hard work within. My turning point came when I became pregnant with my first daughter. For the first time in my life, I found a reason to fight for something greater than myself. That moment marked the beginning of my journey to recovery, and through that journey, I discovered the life I never thought was possible. Today, I’m blessed with an amazing job, a beautiful family with two incredible daughters, and an active role in my recovery community. As a Certified Peer Recovery Specialist (CPRS) and Recovery Coach, I am passionate about helping others find hope and healing. I understand the challenges of breaking free from addiction, and I’m living proof that it’s possible to create a life filled with purpose, joy, and connection. Recovery has given me everything I once believed was out of reach, and I’m honored to walk alongside others as they embark on their own journeys to freedom.
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