An Accountable Member's Journey of Addiction Recovery

A Member • October 2, 2023

I was born on December 11th, 1968, in the northern part of Orlando, Florida. I grew up as the third child in my family, with an older brother and an older sister, in a somewhat rural area. Our family had a passion for motorcycles, and we often raced motocross. However, my journey towards recovery wasn't an easy one, and it's a story I want to share for Recovery Month.


In my early years, I desperately wanted to race motocross, just like my older brother. However, I faced a significant challenge – the lack of proper gear. All I had were hand-me-downs from my brother, who was always better than me in motocross. Determined to pursue my passion, I borrowed a helmet, gloves, and a jersey, and I bought a motorcycle.


In my first race, I surprised everyone by coming in first place, even beating the kid considered the best in the class. Despite my success, my parents were often absent from our lives, struggling with their own issues, including alcoholism.


During those challenging years, I endured a horrifying ordeal that I kept hidden for far too long. I became a victim of sexual abuse, with my brother as a silent witness. I carried the shame and pain of this experience for decades, never uttering a word.


As I grew older, my resentment towards alcohol grew. Yet, I found myself in an environment where it was always present. I abstained from drinking until I turned 15, but after my senior year of football, I started experimenting. I attended a college in Valdosta, Georgia, known for its vibrant college bar scene, and alcohol became a regular part of my life.


I spent ten years working in the Arena Football League, where alcohol was readily available, and I also worked as a bartender during the off-season. I experimented with drugs during one offseason, but they didn't captivate me like alcohol did.


I've been drinking for 35 out of my 54 years of life, and it finally took a toll on my health. I was diagnosed with cirrhosis, a condition closely linked to alcohol abuse. Despite some attempts at sobriety, I continued to struggle with addiction.


My life took a drastic turn when I ended up in the hospital, barely clinging to life. It was a wake-up call that I could no longer deny. The realization that I needed help and couldn't control my addiction was a crucial moment in my journey to recovery.


With the support of my wife and family, I reached out for help. I admitted myself to a Cirque Lodge, where I finally acknowledged my powerlessness over alcohol. It was a moment of relief and hope, something I had not felt in years. After treatment I enrolled in You Are Accountable. I get to meet with Ailish Abbate on a weekly basis, focus on building a sober support network, address triggers, focus on wellness, rebuild trust within my family unit and live a fulfilling life free of alcohol.


Today, I cherish the serenity of a life free from alcohol's grip. I've learned to appreciate the simple joys of life and embrace a newfound sense of peace. Recovery has gifted me the opportunity to pass on the knowledge and experience to others who struggle.


Recovery has been a challenging journey, but it's one that I embrace with gratitude. I'm grateful for the support of my loved ones and the chance to help others who battle addiction.


By Jason Ertrachter February 4, 2025
With over a decade of alcohol and drug abuse, it became clear I could not drink responsibly or consume in moderation. Upon further review, I came to understand I was never able to drink responsibly and was predisposed to consume in excess. Moderation is a construct I still don’t understand. Alcohol, drugs, sugar, ego, all things I love to indulge in. At 25 years old, weeks before the pandemic, I found myself being escorted by security from my beloved office in a sought-after industry in a glamorous part of Los Angeles. Pursuing a career in talent management, the late nights, weekly drinking, daily drug use culminated in the unavoidable fear, anxiety and sense of calamity that led me to recovery. I asked myself, “What was the common denominator between lost jobs, friends lost, arrests, hurt feelings and selfishness?” People, places, things were always changing, but the one constant in my story was me with drugs and alcohol. Walking into the West Hollywood Recovery Center on Monday February 5th, 2020 at noon was not my first meeting. It was, however, the first meeting at which I listened and actually took suggestions. Meetings as a teenager, and again in college when my drug use got bad, were simply to get people off my back. As I look back, I understand that I actually needed to get out of my own way, not have those who loved me off of my back. I am grateful to have gotten sober during a time when the world shut down and so many struggled. I had nowhere to go, no outside distractions to challenge my commitment. I fully emerged myself in meetings and all that AA had to offer for young people. There were thousands of virtual meetings at every hour of the day, but more importantly, rooms and outdoor meetings in LA that never missed a beat. There was an underground community of meeting makers that continued to go to in-person meetings, masks on, hugs and fellowship. I found that the work of early recovery far outweighed the isolation. I left the entertainment industry with two years of sobriety. New career opportunities opened up pretty quickly for me. Transitioning into the startup and tech sales world, I was able to move back home to New York and be closer to my family. As my sobriety continued, new career paths continued to present themselves. When I was introduced to Matt and AJ, I was immediately impressed with their mission and welcomed the opportunity to join the team. I am confident that the combination of my personal and professional success, as well as my CARC, CRPA certification, made my decision the perfect one for me. Having hit my stride in my own recovery, I now see that that my purpose is to help others. It is a purpose I do not take lightly. I bring the same energy and focus that has helped me to get where I am today to other individuals and families alike looking for a better way.
By Stephanie Myers, CPRS January 29, 2025
My name is Stephanie Myers, and I am excited to be part of the incredible team at You Are Accountable . As difficult as my journey prior to recovery was, I am grateful for every step along the way. My recovery journey began five years ago through what I believe was divine intervention. At my lowest point—mentally, physically, and spiritually—I was led to a 12-step recovery program. Most of my life was spent seeking relief from my internal and external struggles. During my teenage years, I thought I had found a solution, but my addiction only progressed, leading me to the depths of despair. My addiction compromised my morals, diminished my integrity, and left me with a profound sense of hopelessness. Overwhelmed by guilt and shame, I realized that everything in my life had to change. I became willing to do whatever it took to shift the trajectory of my life. Gradually, I connected with others who understood my pain and had found their way to recovery. I dedicated myself to internal work and began to fill the spiritual void that I had been attempting to fill with substances. Today, my life is filled with purpose, love, and more beauty than I could have ever imagined five years ago. It is my passion to help others realize that there is hope on the other side of addiction. As a Certified Peer Recovery Specialist, I strive to help plant the seed of recovery and help others grow along their path to recovery.
By Brittany Pealer, CRPS January 28, 2025
My name is Brittany, and I’m honored to be part of the team at You Are Accountable . My journey to recovery has been filled with struggles, lessons, and, ultimately, transformation. For years, I lived in the utter hopelessness of addiction, believing there was no way out. A "normal" life felt completely out of reach, and even as a child, I never felt like I had a true purpose. Throughout my active addiction, I found myself trapped in a relentless cycle. I would put one substance down—whether through treatment or court-ordered intervention—but almost immediately, I would pick up another. Each time, I restarted the same painful, destructive cycle, convinced that I could never break free. It wasn’t until I realized that recovery is an inside job that things began to change. Changing people, places, and things (and substances) can only do so much for so long; true recovery requires doing the hard work within. My turning point came when I became pregnant with my first daughter. For the first time in my life, I found a reason to fight for something greater than myself. That moment marked the beginning of my journey to recovery, and through that journey, I discovered the life I never thought was possible. Today, I’m blessed with an amazing job, a beautiful family with two incredible daughters, and an active role in my recovery community. As a Certified Peer Recovery Specialist (CPRS) and Recovery Coach, I am passionate about helping others find hope and healing. I understand the challenges of breaking free from addiction, and I’m living proof that it’s possible to create a life filled with purpose, joy, and connection. Recovery has given me everything I once believed was out of reach, and I’m honored to walk alongside others as they embark on their own journeys to freedom.
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